http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/posts/page/1/ en Vox Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:33:11 -0700 Copyright 2008 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/burning-burden.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/burning-burden.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/burning-burden.html?_c=feed-rss Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:33:11 -0700 I am sad and my bed is empty and no one is near. No one speaks. My dwelling is quiet except for the dryer tumbling wet towels and the erratic off and on spurts of my thought as I type the bullshit out. I have all this love to burn and sometimes ... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/burning-burden.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00e398eb06210004?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> hope love pain wants needs burdens http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/strength.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/strength.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/strength.html?_c=feed-rss Thu, 27 Mar 2008 23:17:37 -0700 All my life I've been a rock for others. Like rocks, when water seeps into their cracks, some eventually break apart inside where they are most vulnerable or erode from constant bombardment of the elements, if the vulnerability is near the surface... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/strength.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00f48ce8d0f60002?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> hope faith strength courage http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/ps.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/ps.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/ps.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 21 Mar 2008 00:15:45 -0700 Hey, Vox. My little rant down there? I need a vacation. Badly. And I do believe you've got one for me, yes? I'm ready to go to Paris, to Tokyo like you promised. And I'm ready to SHARE it with everyone here and take everyone with me along the way.... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/ps.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00f48d051a970001?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> vox world tour http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/to-hell-with-it.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/to-hell-with-it.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/to-hell-with-it.html?_c=feed-rss Thu, 20 Mar 2008 23:49:40 -0700 It's been a while. I haven't written in long. I've allowed myself to become closed off, I'm afraid. The past weeks since I last wrote, the weeks of January, February, and most of March have been days of trial. I've had devastation and some real bi... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/to-hell-with-it.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00e398e801460005?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/lonely.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/lonely.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/lonely.html?_c=feed-rss Thu, 13 Dec 2007 14:39:56 -0800 Last night I had a dream that a man came to me in my sleep. He did not have me sexually. He simply put his hand on my forehead, stroked my hair and kissed my cheek. I went to sleep last night with ache in both of my legs. When it is cold outside m... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/lonely.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00e398c7b1650005?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> friends sadness depression hope divorce compassion starting over loneliness empathy http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/anguish.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/anguish.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/anguish.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 07 Dec 2007 00:18:25 -0800 Matthew sent me an audio text to my cell phone last night. I was woken up to the sound of my phone going off when the text came in. I check my phone 24/7, in cast anything ever went wrong with William or in case someone needed me. So, I picked up ... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/anguish.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00e398c53dd90002?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> depression life pain william matthew divorce anguish http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/im-still-here.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/im-still-here.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/im-still-here.html?_c=feed-rss Tue, 04 Dec 2007 10:24:12 -0800 I haven't been writing much. I know I've wanted to but the ability to open up and express myself hasn't been there. It's just not in me. It's as if that part of me has died. I used to write only about the beautiful aspects of my life. I loved bein... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/im-still-here.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00e398c4530a0004?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> marriage hurt life love feelings matthew divorce starting over http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/why.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/why.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/why.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 23 Jul 2007 12:20:30 -0700 Sometimes I don't understand why. When did I stop caring? Why did I want my freedom? Why did I feel so unloved? How did it come to this? I suppose that I'll never stop asking myself why. I would like to think I'll move on, maybe even find happi... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/why.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00cd9743458d4cd5?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> family sadness why marriage hurt hope life dreams love true love peace pain happiness divorce starting over separation coping ups and downs worthiness asking yourself why http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/a-thank-you.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/a-thank-you.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/a-thank-you.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 23 Jul 2007 12:06:41 -0700 To all of you who have been reaching out, whether you understand all that I'm going through or not, I thank you. From the bottom of my heart, with my deepest appreciation and gratitude, I thank you. The kind words I am finding here on my blog, e... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/a-thank-you.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00d09e852004be2b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> support friends hurt thanks thank you pain caring divorce friendship loss gratitude thank yous reaching out appreciate http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/give-a-damn.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(Kristen) http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/give-a-damn.html?_c=feed-rss http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/give-a-damn.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 13 Jul 2007 13:03:47 -0700 I want to admit something. I think it was I who gave up long before he did. I think it was me who stopped loving as I should. I know that I was leaving him a long time ago. I think that over the course of time, he, too, was leaving me, but hadn'... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://queenhoda.vox.com/library/post/give-a-damn.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00c225221765549d00d09e81c9c8be2b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> marriage hurt life love anger feelings moving on