2 posts tagged “smile”

I didn't really go outside and make a smiley face with fruit. I'm not that crazy!

Today is a very happy day for me! I'm just really quite happy. It's a good thing and about time too! The past few weeks have been hard and while my problems aren't entirely over, I'm finally starting to see light at the end of the tunnel! Oh the joys of being optimistic.

Why am I so happy? Lots of reasons!

• My dad's stolen money was returned to him by his co-workers! The man in charge of the whole deal is named Mike. I plan on calling him today while my dad is out of the office and thanking him. 
  

• Speaking of my dad, today he told me that I make him want to be a better person. That just did it right there. I tell you what. I've got one hell of a father and I every day I thank my lucky stars for him.
  

• Cate and Iain are coming home this Friday! I am so excited to see my friend. I can't wait to hug her and present her with a batch of cupcakes.
  

• The Vox meet-up in San Fran is this Friday too! I'm so excited (and a little nervous) about meeting everyone.
  

• Since going to San Fran for the meet-up is such a special occasion for me, I went out last night and bought myself a real nice shirt. Actually maybe it's a blouse, or a top. I really am not sure. Honestly, I've never owned such a pretty article of clothing so therefore I don't know what to call it. All I know is I feel like a princess in it. I guess I'll just name it my "Princess Diana." I'm really happy about that. I spent $70 on it and frankly I don't feel any guilt about it. That's the most money I've ever spent on a piece of clothing. Normally I'm a $5-$10, target-shopping, practical kind of girl. Vox is probably one of the best things to ever happen to me next to meeting my husband and having my son. So, I plan to show up sparkling because this event is so special to me!

• There's something else happening this week that I'm not sure if I should talk about or not so for now I'll just keep it to myself and tell everyone later but basically I'm freaking out excited about it (in a good, happy way) and honestly, I just might pee my pants. Let's hope that doesn't happen.
  

• One of the biggest reasons I'm so happy this week is because of some really great people in my 'hood' who've taken the time to help get me through my problems and share in my happiness. It's not just been this week that many of you have touched my life, it's nearly constant actually. However, this week has been somethin' else. This week I've felt so much friendship from people I have never even met before. I really think that Vox has harnessed the good that can be done and found online. I've never encountered so many fantastic people gathered in one community before in my 10 years on the internet.
  

• Finally, I can't forget to give credit to my husband because he is responsible for the smile I had when I went to bed last night and when I woke up this morning. I came home from shopping last night just before midnight and he was standing at the sink doing dishes. Then he swept the floor. It was so great and those two small things meant the world to me. When I woke up this morning, his arms were around me. I'd also like to mention he has busted his ass this week and he's made some significant amounts of money. I'm really proud of him. I love him a lot.
  

I feel good today and on that note I'll end here. I'm going to saddle up William's stroller and ride off into the sunset - erm, I mean walk to the park!

I live to hold this child.

Life is so wonderful.

My son makes it that way. I mean, honestly, I don't know where or who I'd be without him. I look back on all these years without him in my life and I marvel at how stark the difference in my life is when I compare then to now.

William is just a blessing. I can't find any other words to describe how wonderful he is. He's a gift from God and he's very special. Daily, he makes both my husband's life and my life, a magical adventure.

I look at him now, so grown from when he was first born, so beautiful, so perfect. He has this little awkward walk he does that just makes me laugh. He points at things in wonder a lot lately, with wide sparkling eyes and says in a hushed, awed little voice "ohhh wowww."

He has the sweetest voice.

When William points up at the stars in the sky, with stars in his eyes, I'm not sure if I should share in his marvel, or marvel instead at him.

He has his little rituals, like pulling out all the toys in his toy chest, examining each one closely before moving onto the next. He opens his dresser drawers, carefully selecting items of clothing he finds suit his plan best, then putting those clothes in a bucket, and carrying the bucket around the house, so proud of his hard work and the clothes he picked out.

I'm not sure if it's that William notices a lot of things other babies at his age don't typically notice or it's just that he pays attention to detail. He will turn the covers of dvd's over and examine the pictures closely. He will examine the newspaper and point to pictures he finds interesting. He will even run his index finger over the words, as if he knows they mean something. He loves books. He will turn their pages and examine the pictures so carefully and closely, as if he's committing it all to memory.

What amazes me about William is how he does notice life's little details and is in awe over the small, beautiful things of this world we adults often overlook. William inspires me to look at the small things below my feet and think "yep, that IS pretty cool. I'm glad I didn't miss that."

He's made me wonder if I shouldn't enter him into a baby contest or a television commercial. He stops people dead in their tracks in the stores and shopping centers. People just seem to be drawn to his big, blue eyes and contagious smile.

The glow of motherhood

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I love it that people love him so much but I am the one who gets to hold him, I am his mother, I gave birth to him. I love it how he is my son, yet he is his own person and that beautiful little soul inside of him shines, not because of anything I've done but because he is so pure and innocent.

Honestly, if I had known I would have such a beautiful child, all those years spent waiting for him would have been so much harder than they were, and they were very hard. I always knew I wanted to be a mother and the waiting was enough to kill me, but wait I did and now here I am, a mother, a grown woman and my son is here, making my life more wonderful than I ever dreamed possible.

God blessed me with an amazing, perfect and beautiful child inside and out. I am so thankful. There just aren't enough words or even the right words in existence which explain or describe the love I have and feel because of William.